Thoughts for today!!

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I WOULD NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES,
TRADE THE PAIN OF TODAY FOR THE PAIN OF YESTERDAY.
THE PAIN OF HEALING, WHILE NOT EASY TO COPE WITH,
IS MORE BEARABLE THAN THE PAIN OF HURT..
N.W.A.A.

[straighteyes (deleted)]

Leaving the path of suffer, pain and hurt is like a rebirth. The path of healing is a long road, it might not end in this life. But a step into a new direction is a step into a new life. The path of healing is a strong way not easy but you get stronger with every step you take. The first years you may have to face the old patterns and the old hurts very often, it may be possible that old wounds open up and you have to cry for days, sometimes tears turn into rivers you start to cry and you just can´t stop and you wonder where these tears are coming from, sometimes tears you have not been able to cry at that moment you should have done. There might be days and nights you are just able to stay on your couch or in your bed, with your teddy in your arm. Mine is still sitting on my bed. On some days you feel like a tank, you go out into the world and hurt people with the intention to get rid of your pain..you start fights because you want to feel that you are still alive. On some days you can´t feel your body you feel like standing aside..the path of healing has many facettes. Sometimes you just want to stop because you think you can´t do it any more...but the process of healing can´t be stopped. Sometimes you fall back into old patterns with the people you choose around you..but every wrong chose you take let you grow with the discovery of new strengths. You discover that feeling old pain again with every cell of your body and that walking through this old pain sets you free. Getting hurt is painful, working old pain out is the strenght given by our creator and the day you start the path of healing you start to walk and grow in beauty.

straighteyes

[zoupi]

`I'm right with you Hugger with just this "nuance" : I don't let my pains of yesterday become the translator of my acts and decision of today. Life is often a succession of risks taken or avoid.
I can't avoid all risks if I want to keep to live but I have learnt to be attentive enough to reject immediatly things I feel being lies and possible abuses.

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zoupi wrote: `I'm right with you Hugger with just this "nuance" : I don't let my pains of yesterday become the translator of my acts and decision of today. Life is often a succession of risks taken or avoid.
I can't avoid all risks if I want to keep to live but I have learned to be attentive enough to reject immediately things I feel being lies and possible abuses.

DITTO!!!