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my identity started. what did my identity consist of? for one of being the one to take a risk, to be brave, to start, to step into get something done. this was from i first knew "something is wrong". small story short. i tried to reach for this soda can. father would hit my hand away from it. once i was close to drinking and someone hit my hand away from it again and i did cried and all i heard was yelling around me. finally, one day i saw that same soda... i took and ran into the dog house. i dranked it...dramatic story was...i was found in the dog house passed out with a empty coors beer can next to me. my second identity was to be flirtatious with excitment. like being the class clown...thee entertainer. this was my strong suit. it was a cover up from the passing of my father who died from alcoholism. this happen 1 week before my 8th grade promotion, going into high school. boy did i wanted to die. i attempted to commit to sucide so many time. i actually had a rifle in my mouth and i actually pull the trigger with it loaded. and the rifled misfired 5times. and i aimed away from to check it...it fired.and yes i still "i didnt feel like i belong". being an entertainer was a cover up. my third identity i was unstoppable, to do whatever is necessary to get thing done right. to learn and to study to achieve my goals, my purpose. this came about when i had gone through my car accident and court cases after court cases. knowing my case was bull----..i know i was inoccent. ihad a green light and the other ran a red light....and they lied about everything and they got away from the law. yes they were white....and they were teenaagers. all this happened around 1:30am in the morning. the other party admitted they had alcohol and marijuna. and i had a alcohol level of .01. yet i was proven guilty. i eneded up in prison.i didnt trust no one after that. not even females. i been single for 8 yrs going on to 9. my business wasnt going no where. thankGod to Avery who introduced Landmark to me. now...im --- kicker in my own life. i got it back. before i was just someone in the world....now after landmark...i am the world to someone. i am here to make a huge difference in my and your community. now im 35. i am creating the possibility of being a fun lovin friend, who is exciting...and also being a powerful inspirational leader. there will be a day when i am a great father....and one awesome husband. living that life to my golden age. with silver long hair.
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