wolfshaman99
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Given the years I have spent dating, it seems like every time I go to find love...bad things happen. I look back at all the relationships of the past and one word seems to describe me....doormat.
Am I wrong for loving unconditionally? Doing things for the other person without asking for anything in return? Being there when they need someone and bending over backwards?
I begin to wonder if being a true romantic and holding myself to being a nice guy with a big heart is worth all the abuse I take. I seem to attract unstable people and a combination of that as well as those who take advavantage of me. I don't want to be alone because of my nature and that I don't want to live my life without love.
It doesn't help that I turned 40 three days ago. It leaves me to wonder if I will find the one I am meant to be with and that life will get better. Right now part of me wants to give up because I see how people are these days yet the other part of me will surely die without love.
What am I to do?
Just wanting to find my center |
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